I am feeling very toolish today. Well, left over from yesterday. Today I'm just really tired.

Yesterday I just broke down. I am so tired of being in pain and I know that it's only been two weeks since the surgery but I've had nothing but pain for over a year now. Sometimes, it just gets to be too much. Today is another day where I just want to cry. This time I don't have to worry about Josh getting upset. Sometimes I just feel like fail!parent because I can't do the things that he wants to do. He wants to go skating and I swear, I am going to get on the ice on his birthday. I don't care what I feel like, I am going to do it.

I just hate this feeling like I am going to break.

Second day of a Wizards of Waverly Place marathon. I want to shoot myself. Two more hours and it will be over. I can last. Then I can put something decent on.

I'm trying to figure out what to do with groceries this week. I'll have a bit of extra money this week but I don't know what I should make. I wanted to make throw together again but I have to make sure I can get cheese at a relatively cheap price. I'd have to get two bricks because Josh will want to eat one. I'll have to pick up more carrots, probably two bags of them at least. Josh went nuts with the last bag and it was gone in two days.

And less that two hours now. Had to take a food break.

We're going to be baking soon as well so that will get me away from this show. I wish I could go back to sleep. Oh, that reminds me that I need to take my pills soon. I guess I should go so I can get everything ready to bake. I need to make sure that the bathtub gets cleaned tonight before my bath. I'll probably end up doing it myself. That will be interesting.

Last night was pretty cool. Josh and I spent at least an hour watching Lady Gaga videos. I have to make sure I can pick up the CD for him for his birthday. There are a bunch of things that I want to pick up for him this year. He'll be 10. It's still surprising to me that I will have a 10 year old.

I haven't done anything today. I went to bed at 2:30 this morning because I was watching the Johnny Depp version of Sleepy Hollow and woke up at 11. I got Josh lunch and had a bath and read some. At 2:30 I fell back asleep and woke up at 4:30. Right now I am fighting to stay awake. I think I'm coming down with something. It wouldn't be surprising with me being in and out of the hospital because of my knee. Plus, the people here are a little disgusting and don't think there's a problem with coughing all over the bus handles and things. Sometimes I hate public transportation. Tomorrow will be much of the same I think. I don't have any money to really go anywhere and I don't have any bus tickets.

Oh, that reminds me. I have to look for my bus pass. Maybe I'll do that now to get away from Wizards of Waverly Place. Sometimes I hate Family.

Happy New Year!

Well, day one of this. I can do this for another month. I KNOW I CAN!

I guess I should say a little something about myself since well, there are only four posts on this blog.

My name is Kathy, 31, mother of one. I work for the City of Ottawa and am hoping to get hired on full time. I'm currently part time and temporary and while I do like the job and the pay is decent, I need something more.

I sometimes write fanfic for PoT though I haven't written anything in months. The inspiration just isn't there right now. I love to read and am currently reading Sense and Sensibility and Sea Monsters. It's fabulous so far. I'm playing Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles: Echoes of Time and also Ring of Fates from the same series. They are great games. I am also playing Pokemon Diamond and Platinum because I want to be a Pokemon master.

I have signed up to complete the NaBloPoMo challenge on this blog. Every day this month I will be posting something, a quick note about my day, a meme, videos or pictures of what has happened. I'm not sure if anyone will see this so we'll see.

I think I am going to start doing the NaBloPoMo challenge with this blog next year. I started it a year ago and have only made, with this post, four entries. It seems a waste. I have the other blog that I'd like to turn into a travel blog, but I'd have to work on that. I just want to feel like I'm doing something.

So my New Year's resolution will be to post in this blog more. If I do manage the NaBlo it will be here. Any major posts I will just link over here.

And why can't I sleep? It's 12:30, I have taken the pills and I am not tired. A few hours ago I was exhausted and felt like I needed to sleep. Now, not so much. Maybe after this show. I remember it being on earlier and I didn't watch it. It's interesting and I love this series. "Mystic Women of the Middle Ages". I wonder if they'd have episodes on youtube. I'll look in the morning.

We need to get this place cleaned if Josh is going to have Vincent and Raffy sleep over. I hope we can do it.

Lasagna Madness!

Yesterday I made the most amazing lasagna ever. I swear, it was great, and it didn't cost a lot since most everything I needed was on sale. I'm going to go back and get more sauce, cheese and meat and make it again later. Josh loved it, and the kid usually hates anything with sauce. Seriously. I'm at the point where I am going to make him white pizza with just garlic butter on the crust. Hmm, we should make pizza one day.

Anyway, I am showing pictures because I am proud of how it turned out.


This is how much cheese I ended up using. There is roughly 8 cups of mozzarella cheese in here.











The finished product, just out of the oven. Yeah, you can see that the sauce exploded all over the oven.











And my plate. You can see the steam coming off of it. It was soooooo good. We still have enough for tomorrow's dinner. It's going to be great.











I have to remember to go to Farm Boy to get veggies. I hope they're cheaper and better than at the grocery store.

I also need to play Pokemon Diamond for a bit more, and restart Emerald. Josh said I could do it just so I can get a Mudkip. I can't wait.

Tired

It is 10:54pm. I am ready for bed. The minute you turn 30 you start to decline. I have noticed this. Soon I will be 31. I am scared to think of what will happen.

And now, I am going to sleep. Wow.